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"Schizophrenic conversations that
I'm always having with myself.
I hear these voices in my head competing.
Maybe I could use a little help
I still have schizophrenic conversations
Where there's no one else around to hear.
I long for solitude and peace within me
Void of all the anger and the fear."
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» thinkin
« wat?? wat u thinkin abt nw ..
» relatin to dis thing ...
« .. to wat??
» to dis song, reminds me of sumthn
« xplain ...
» she sits alone, tries her best not to pretend dat all she used to live for ws da luv dat wsnt der ... she feels void insyd again, cuz he ws neva der
« ws he lyk dat all da tym??
» yeah, well for quite a while ... nw he looks at all da ppl hypnotized n wonders wat can save him frm a self-created hell .. he swears he aint da devil
« he is ... he unleashd da monster in him .. he let it go ....
» ya may b, but der's a good reason for dat
« not good enuf, he had a choice .. didnt he??
» yeah he did .. hmmm ..
« wel, does he regret for da choices he made ..
» wel ... ummm ... no, he doesnt actually he thinks tym to tym of wat he has done, but doesnt regret ..
« den y does he hav to think abt it neway ..
» just to find out whr he stands at dis very state ...
« hmmm, nethn else u relatin to ..
» yeah der is, a lot
« go on ..
» nt in da mood, l8r may b
« neah, u r just afraid
» afraid!! of wat?
« afraid of da truth, in da mirror starin bak at u
» sure, wateva ..
« ya watvea

okey, here it goes. i kinda found da gal (or shud i say woman) whom i want to b ma first wife :P .. now dnt freak out just yet. der is more. well ... she is hot, sekcy, beutiful and she is older dan me by 4 or 5 yrs ;)  Quesion: does it really matter if she is older dan me?? i think its kewl in a way u kno. for instance she will definitely b more experineced dan me. dats good, ri8 if u kno wat i mean :P .... just hope ma dad or mom doesnt read it, cuz i ws plannin to surprise dem .. hehehe. i hav no idea hw r dey gonna react, but assumin it aint gonna b less scarier dan one of ma worst ni8mares lolz. btw, pray for me guyz .. so dat i can marry her by nxt year .... newyz, adios for nw.

a cigarette shortens ur lyf by 2 mins .. 
a beer shortens ur lyf by 4 mins .. 
a working day shortens ur lyf by 8 hours!!! :P

aint dat a good enuf xcuse 4 nt seein ma blogs so often as b4 .. lolz

well, wat else .. lyfs good so far. i mean da usuals. nuthn interestin or nethn ... all blah blah blah n bullshit :P

... "Old habits die hard
Harder than November rain
Old habits die hard
Old soldiers just fade away
Old habits die hard
Hard enough to feel the pain" ...

old memories sumhw found a way to get bak into ma head. ws listenin to dis song old habits die hard by mick jagger n dave stewart, n dats whn dese flashbaks were spinnin around.

... "I act like an addict, i just got to have it
I can never just leave it alone" ...

sum things in lyf u just neva forget. thot i got over it, but still boders me sumtyms.

... "I thought I shook myself free
You see I bounce back quicker than most
But i'm half delirious, Is too mysterious" ...

yeah .. old habits die hard, but it surely dies ... hmmmmm, thnk i've gone nuts lolz.

lyf's all work n no play ... neah, not ma lyf, atleast nt nw. been workin n playin at da same tym :P ... eider way been bz bz bz. wat's new, forgot ma password for da classified blog, so cnt post private blogs .. damn it. gt a lot of dirty stufs to rite abt .. man!! dis is annoyin.

oh .. almost forgot, saw dat hot chicky jeri of our uni on 14th who wsnt dat hot nemore. actually, she lookd horrible. lyf's so rude sumtyms ... i mean she lost her craze bfore i cud even get a piece of her, lolz. btw, just for da record .. i dnt celebrate da so calld meaningless v-day ... so no wishes frm me, n no need to wish me eider, hehehe. p.s. no offence to all da lovers of da world :P

and dis msg is to a frnd of mine (hope u r readin dis) ---- she needs me, i want her ... so hook us up. u asshole, hurry up ... me getn restless. i m sirius dude ... hehe.

o boi, long tym no write-ups. been here n der .. u kno bz. let me just summarize da stuffs dat hpnd lately. first of all, got a job last month. started officially from da 1st of dis month tho. its interestin, da job i mean. da guyz i m workin wit r realy kewl n smart. learnin new stufs evryday. oh our convocation ws on 28th. it ws fun. we had our private party da nxt day ... a gr8 parte. will upload da pics as soon as i get hold of dem. well, dats abt it for now.