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cnt fuckin wait no more. so signed up for a new private blog, as i lost da pass for ma old one. newayz, tryin to upload sum pics frm ma convocation in ma fotoblog. chk dem out.

whn sumbody expects u to say sumthn, but u dunno wat to say or u just dnt wana say it .... den wat do u do?? ne bri8 ideas ... here's wat i did, kept silent .... just realized sumthn, i put maself in sum of da shitty situations all by maself. cud hav handled it better. but took da twisted way, altho da ez way out ws alwayz der infront of me. still is i think, to sum extent. well ... da rest of dis crap talk is left for sevenlives, nt here :p ... too personal.

whn da day is done, i kno wat u r but wat m i? dese days, all i do is screw up. negligence may b? or m i lost. need a really good cloak, or just need to fig out sumthn. mayb tomorrow will find ma way ... just mayb.

sumtyms u expect just a bit more dan u get, still u cnt do or say nethn abt it. cuz its not ur tym, not just yet. u decide to accept things as dey r. nw here is da ironic part, evrytym things dnt liv up to ur expectations .. u say to urself, dis is it. no more high hopes. still, as tym goes by, u forget wat hapnd in da past n raise ur hopes once again, may b even more. n so ur expectations get shatterd again; n it just kips goin on ..... pathetic, simply pathetic.

simple lies ... of wat we r, wat we hav ... wont hurt nemore
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sumbody once told me -- ma eyes talk, or may b ws it sumthn else she said. cnt recall wat ws it abt. dnt even kno y dis came to ma head all of a sudden .... weird.

...
"Schizophrenic conversations that
I'm always having with myself.
I hear these voices in my head competing.
Maybe I could use a little help
I still have schizophrenic conversations
Where there's no one else around to hear.
I long for solitude and peace within me
Void of all the anger and the fear."
...

» thinkin
« wat?? wat u thinkin abt nw ..
» relatin to dis thing ...
« .. to wat??
» to dis song, reminds me of sumthn
« xplain ...
» she sits alone, tries her best not to pretend dat all she used to live for ws da luv dat wsnt der ... she feels void insyd again, cuz he ws neva der
« ws he lyk dat all da tym??
» yeah, well for quite a while ... nw he looks at all da ppl hypnotized n wonders wat can save him frm a self-created hell .. he swears he aint da devil
« he is ... he unleashd da monster in him .. he let it go ....
» ya may b, but der's a good reason for dat
« not good enuf, he had a choice .. didnt he??
» yeah he did .. hmmm ..
« wel, does he regret for da choices he made ..
» wel ... ummm ... no, he doesnt actually he thinks tym to tym of wat he has done, but doesnt regret ..
« den y does he hav to think abt it neway ..
» just to find out whr he stands at dis very state ...
« hmmm, nethn else u relatin to ..
» yeah der is, a lot
« go on ..
» nt in da mood, l8r may b
« neah, u r just afraid
» afraid!! of wat?
« afraid of da truth, in da mirror starin bak at u
» sure, wateva ..
« ya watvea